Monday, October 8, 2012

Who am I?

At least when you're acting you can be someone. Aside from the camera you have to be yourself. And who am I? There's something safe about playing a character, but then I feel like I have to ask myself 'Who am I underneath it all?' Oh, who am I trying to kid? I'm a madhouse. The minute those cameras go off, I just explode. I lost myself in the process and I realized how much I had identified myself with everyone else. When that was gone, I had to really sit back and go, 'Well, actually, who am I today?' Do you want to know who you are? Don't ask. Act! Action will delineate and define you. Even if you fall on your face, you're still moving forward.
Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time. The first step toward success is taken when you refuse to be a captive of the environment in which you first find yourself. But how do you do that, when you don't even know where to begin the search? The secret of getting ahead is getting started. You can't build a reputation on what you are going to do, you have to actually do it. Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed. Thinking is easy, acting is difficult, and to put one's thoughts into action is the most difficult thing in the world. Acting deals with very delicate emotions. It is not putting up a mask. Each time an actor acts he does not hide; he exposes himself. So again, who am I?

 




Tuesday, May 15, 2012

I'm fine...

Distance causes "us" to stray
When my heart is begging you to stay
I say don't love, don't feel so strong
But what if that's what I feel
Or am I the one in the wrong?

Love is an illusion
A reason that my mind is so dillusional
Should I stay or go
Do I dare say that I love you?

I may be pushed away
But once I fall
I'll stand once again
And try over, my dear.

Never once to see your face
Yet my heart continues to race
Not able to get you off of my mind
Tears may come, but dear
I'm fine...

This I Believe...

            I believe that homosexuals deserve the right of equality, in all circumstances. Deciding whom to give rights to, and what rights those are, has been a struggle since Civil War times. People were birthed the same way, through a female’s birth and most people struggle through the same things. So why equality shouldn’t be given to all, has me questioning the sanity of our society. Recently, I have come out to being bisexual. It’s one of the hardest things that anyone could ever go through. It seems like, at times, all of the complications that come along with being me are slowly causing me to break down. Every day, I think about falling in love with someone of the same gender and possibly never being able to live happily ever after. It hurts, more than anything that I have ever endured before. When I first “came out”, I thought that I was going to lose my family, my friends, and eventually my own sanity. Eventually, I realized that your family should love you for who you truly are, and not who you pretend to be, so I began to stand up for my beliefs. Though problems at home seemed to begin to change for the better, struggles at school were still not the best that they could be. Luckily supportive friends were what I had, so most of them stayed by my side through the situation. Though today I am still struggling with the complications that come along with who I am, I’ve learned through trials and tribulations that it gets better. Life goes on, and one day I will be happy. One day I plan on marrying someone whom I love, no matter their gender. I’m living my life one day at a time and I have to admit that, I am happier now than I have ever been before. Not having to worry about hiding who I am “behind closed doors” makes a huge difference. If happiness and a “perfect society” is what the United States wants, then taking rights away from a ton of people is not going to help fulfill that goal. Everybody's journey is individual. If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in love with a boy. If you fall in love with a girl, you fall in love with a girl. The fact that many Americans consider it a disease says more about them than it does about homosexuality. Homosexuals deserve happiness and equality, and this is what I believe.